Resolutions

It's that time again to begin anew. This year I have a few resolutions. My first is to stay in marathon shape not only for the marathon but throughout the year. My second is to begin to let go of the anger inside of me. This resolution might take more than just one year, but we'll see how it goes. I just hope this year is filled with lots of fun and progress.
Well I am off to San Diego for a weekend of fun with my brothers. I'm excited, partying with them is always good times. I hope everyone has a great New Year's!

Reflections

Another year is almost over. So many things have happened this year. I would like to be positive about things, but to say that this year was tough would be an understatement. Although it was a difficult year, I am determined to take with me all the lessons that I learned as a result of the struggles.
I wish I could say this year was great, but for all the great things that I experienced, I also experienced an equal amount of pain and heartache.
I was sitting in the car today listening to a cd and as the songs came on, each one reminded me of something that happened this year. I kept thinking about how much I wanted to write about when I got home but, when I sat down to write, I had nothing. So, I went out to my car and got the cd. Now that it's playing, it's all coming back.
Music moves me, it is a part of me. It allows me to feel for just one moment exactly how I felt then, now. This is the soundtrack of my year.

January
Bebot-Black eyed peas:
Getting ready to go out New Year's eve/New Years. It was a great party with all the homies.

January
Bro Hymn Tribute-Pennywise:
Pennywise concert. The energy at this concert was intense. It was the most awesome concert ever. I will never forget it.

March
Screaming infidelities-Dashboard Confessional:
I think it was mile 16 of the L.A. marathon, this song came on my ipod. I was tired, but determined and ahead of me was a picturesque view of Downtown L.A. I could see all the buildings and streets and I knew I was going to make it.

May/June
Pomp and Circumstance, March no. 1-Edward Elgar:
My college graduation. It was so hot it brought me to tears. That day kind of defines my year. It was an absolutely great feeling to finally graduate but that day can not be defined as great because of all of the personal turmoil I was experiencing at the same time.

June-August
Crazy-Gnarls Barkley:
My little brother's birthday and almost the entire summer.

August
Lonely Day-System of a Down:
My grandfather passing away. My heart was crushed, I was numb.


October
Moneymaker-Ludacris:
Halloween at Busbys. Good times.

November
Chasing Cars-Snow Patrol:
My birthday without you, Thanksgiving. Feeling old.

December
Until the day I die-Story of the Year:
How I feel now and forever about you.

A new year will begin soon, and I hope it brings with it many new things to be happy about. My hope for the new year is that I don't have to experience so much loss. This year I lost my grandfather, my godmother, Danny and Alfonso. The pain of each one of their deaths was different, but painful nonetheless.
This year will soon be just another memory, but I will always have these songs to remind me of it.

I just had to put it down

With the holidays upon us, I know that I should be reflecting on everything that I am blessed with. Trust me when I say this, I am thankful for everything I have. I couldn't ask for a better family, I have an awesome job and so many other things are wonderful in my life. However, there is one thing that I just had to put in writing before this year is over, even though I know the person/people who this is directed to will never read it.
Like many of you know, I absolutely love music. The wonderful thing about music is that oftentime someone who actually has singing/writing talent manages to write a song with lyrics that fit so well with a situation/s that you have experienced. Not every lyric in this song fits, but I'm putting down the lyrics that I totally feel. This song is in spanish so I translated it, for my non spanish speaking readers. : )

Te he querido, te he llorado (I have loved you, I have cried over you) by Ivy Queen

...Te burlas de mi, me haces sufrir...
No soy de hierro
Yo soy una mujer...
Sufriras como yo asi tu lo veras
Y en tu vida nadie te querra
Lo que hiciste me la pagaras
Si en mis manos tuviera un puñal lo usaria
Y la vida yo te quitaria Por dejarme tan sola y vacia

English:
You make fun of me, you make me suffer.
I am not made out of iron, i am a woman.
You will suffer the way I have suffered, trust me.
In your life no one will like/love you.
What you did to me you will pay for.
If in my hand I had a knife, I would use it.
I would take your life, for leaving me so empty and alone.


Like I said before, I know it won't be read by the person/people that made me feel this way, but it just feels better to put it down in writing. Anyway, I think this song is amazing and if you actually want to hear it I have it on my Myspace so check it out.

***update: now you don't have to go to my Myspace page***


Te he querido , Te he llorado - MUSICA.COM

Rainbows

Although I have experienced a great deal of personal loss this week, there are definitely some good things going on in my life. On Monday, I had originally thought of writing a post about my weekend, but with so much weighing on my heart I needed to write about that first.
So this post is going to be my rainbow after the rain.
My weekend began kinda crappy (read two blogs down), but thankfully it did improve. Chris and I went out for some drinks Friday after work and watched a movie. It was good times. Nothing super crazy, but we have a good time no matter what we do. Saturday I worked all day and just hung out with my family.
On Sunday, Bobby and I went to my company's Christmas party. It was so much fun. I am very thankful that I left one good company for another. Everyone at my work is wonderful and I had a great time hanging out with them. From my experience, most Christmas parties are in the evening, but ours was a Sunday brunch party. It was awesome, but it kind of threw off my day, seeing how I ended up drunk by 1pm. :)
Well it's Wednesday and the weekend is once again upon us. It's going to be a long weekend so I am definitely excited. Tomorrow my little sister is coming and she is bringing my niece!!! Yay!!
Okay so I think this is long enough and I need to get some work done for my meeting on Friday. Hope everyone has had a good week so far. : )

A prayer for the departed

In the past week, two family friends have passed away. A third, a little four year old girl who was a former student of my sister's also passed.

May you rest peacefully in the arms of the lord.
Your memory will always be with us.
Alfonso-The smell of your flower shop.
Danny-Your platinum blonde hair.
Zabrina-Your innocent smile, so much life to look forward to.
You will forever be in our hearts.

It is difficult to deal with loss at any time of the year. Especially now, during the holidays when we celebrate with our family and friends. Words can not explain how much they will be missed.

Tough

Today has been pretty tough. My car is totally protesting the amount of driving I put it through. Aside from that some other not so fun things have happened today.
So, on the way to work this morning I got hit by a mini van. I was at a stop light and this huge mini van thought he could squeeze by my car and the island to get into the turning lane. Well, he couldnt and he scraped the side of my car. I pulled up next to him and told him to pull over. He proceeded to turn but he just took off. I was super pissed off so I took off after him. I chased him around a few city blocks and through a shopping center before I ended up catching a red light and he got away. : ( I was so heated.
That was this morning. I had to cancel my afternoon sessions because of my car, so that sucked. Lastly, I still feel like crap. : ( I think I feel worse. My eyes are burning (from a considerable amount of tears shed yesterday) and my head is totally pounding.
On the upside, Chris is coming over to hang out and we are gonna watch a movie. So that should be fun. Alrighty folks, not a great start to the weekend but hopefully it will get better. : )

yuck : (

I feel sick...again. I know it's one of the hazards of my job but jeez...i have been sick more in the past three months than I ever have in my entire life. Ok so that's a slight exageration,but you get the picture. My throat hurts and I have a horrible headache. : ( I know the headache is partly due to the fact that my car has been giving me problems...again, but the sore throat may be the sign of another cold. So, I'm grumpy and I'm lonely and I don't want to get out of bed. I've been in bed since I got home from work. What's worse is the weekend is coming up and of course I'm sick. : ( I think working six days a week is wearing on me.
Okay I think I'm done bitchin, but if you'd like to cheer me up you can give me a call, or send me a message.

7:20

That's the time I left for work on Friday morning. That also happens to be the time I got home from work that evening. It was a long day to say the least. Actually, it was a long two weeks. Thankfully I had a wonderful weekend to make up for not having a day off from work in 13 days.
My friend from high school came to visit me and we had an awesome time. I normally don't do much on the weekends, so it was nice to go out. Saturday night we did the tourist thing and went to the promenade and the pier. Of course I had to take him to one of my favorite establishments: Barneys Beanery, where we did some catching up over rounds of booze. It was super good times.
Today we had a busy day too. After a great champagne brunch we headed over to the Alternative car show at Barker Hanger at the Santa Monica airport. It was cool, we got to see cars that use alternate forms of fuel. Some of the cars were a little to funky for my liking but it was fun to check them out and sit in them. We didn't spend too much time there since we both wanted to go to the LA car show at the convention center.
We headed over there and spent a good time looking at all the cars. I love going to the car show! It was awesome. We saw the new Camaro which is coming back in 2009 and the new Challenger which is coming back in 2008, along with a long list of other sweet cars.
All in all it was an awesome weekend. Now, it's time to start another work week. I hope everyone has a good week!

She deserves it

Since Jesse and Matthew have a post totally dedicated to them, I thought my niece Lorena (Lulu) should have one for herself. Come to think of it, I think she already does. In any case, she is so cute perhaps she deserves two. : )
My relationship with her is completely different than the one I have with my two nephews. My sister and her family don't live down the street, so I don't get to see her nearly as often as I would like to. Every time I see her she just looks so different. Anyway, here are the most recent pictures of her, she is so cute!

Looking so pretty!


I gave her this outfit. : ) (My brother says she looks like an ewok)


Enjoying her hand.


okay I can't leave them out completely. All three angels together. Poor photographer, trying to get them to sit still long enough to take the picture was not an easy task.

January 22nd

That's when Heroes comes back...that is entirely too long to wait for a new episode. Tonights episode was awesome as always. This post should be longer but I'm tired. That and I don't think anybody reads this anymore, except for Justine....since he's the only one that comments. Thanks Justine. : ) Well, good night.