distractions from my distraction

Okay, so I named my blog distractions because it has a tendency to distract me from the things that I should be doing....like running, getting ready for work. when I was in school it would distract me from my studying. Now I have a distraction from this, my distraction. I've lived with my nephews now for almost 3 months and man they are by far my most favorite distraction. This morning I woke up with every intention to go on a nice long run...well that quickly changed when my nephews came into the room to say good morning. They are so cute and I can't help but play with them, make cooing noises (to the six month old) and blow bubbles on their tummies. So long story short I didn't go for a run, but I did go on a walk with my nephews. And I did wrestle with my Jesse now that he is feeling better. So like four days later, I am finally posting this thing. My distractions are going to san diego tomorrow...I am gonna miss them. :(

late nights...

Today I made the decision to be open about the way I feel, to the people that mean the most to me. Everything went well. It made me feel so good. Today I spent a fabulous day with an awesome person, it made me feel so good. Last night I felt so good. Did I mention I feel so good? I'm going to bed to dream about everything that has made me feel so good in the last 48 hours.

comfort

So last night/this morning I was feeling a little blue and I decided to call my little brother. I knew if anyone would be awake at 1 in the morning it would be him. Sure enough he was awake, and he walked up to meet me. We walked back to my mom's and he instinctively knew that I had a lot on my mind. So we talked, all the way to my mom's and almost all night long. We sat in the kitchen and just talked. I can't remember the last time we did that. Come to think of it, I don't think we've ever done that. We talked and he made me food. He made me my ultimate comfort food-grilled cheese sandwich. It was funny, I originally started making it, but he kept trying to tell me what to do i.e. you don't want to use that knife...you want to turn the flame down a little lower, so he told me to sit down and he took over. It was nice sitting back and watching him in is domain. I know you're thinking, come on now it's just grilled cheese, but you have to understand that my little brother is a chef and he absolutely refuses to watch people prepare food using incorrect technique....even the wrong knife. It was great to eat it- the simplicity of bread and cheese. : ) So we ate and talked. It comforted me like nothing else. It is amazing to see how much we've grown. We've grown from beating, teasing and taunting, to sharing with each other our dreams, goals and tribulations. It's comforting to know that even though we've grown that much, we haven't grown beyond pinkie swearing that this conversation was for our ears only. : )I love my little brother, he's a good kid with a good heart.
I finally made it home last night at around 4 in the morning. It was great...it was what I needed.

looking forward

Today I am looking forward. Looking forward to new experiences and to making new memories. I talked to an old girlfriend of mine and we made plans to celebrate fourth of july together. We haven't seen each other in at least four years. I am looking forward to reconnecting. I realized that this is part of letting go. I will never forget the memories that we shared, but my memories will also include experiences that you are not a part of. And that is okay, because today, I am looking forward.