My blog for Chhean part 2...

So I shouldn't have even started the last post because I knew I was limited on time....whatever. So last week when I started writing that post, I totally needed to talk to you...I needed to bitch. You know what it was? I was sad for a few days and I got tired of being sad. My sadness turned to anger and I needed that outlet to bitch. So I'm not angry anymore. I'm not sad either. I do however remember what put me in that mood. It was a couple of things...Primarily, I was mad at myself for shedding tears over someone who didn't deserve it...not even one drop. I know I don't even have to tell you, I'm sure you already know.
You think I would learn Chhean, but I don't. I'm too nice to people when I meet them, and I realize too late that they didn't deserve any of my kindness. Not even a fucking hello...But that realization makes me sad. Why are people so horrible to each other? So inconsiderate? So fucking FAKE!!!! I hate feeling like I can't trust anybody. I hate feeling like I can't believe what people tell me. If there is no trust, then what is there?
You know what's going to happen. I'm going to keep doing what I do. I can't help it. I don't want to believe that people aren't good. I refuse to believe that people aren't good.....
I miss you Chhean. We need to talk in person soon. Until then, my blogs will be for you!

This one is for you.....

Chhean, this one is for you. You are the only person who has told me they still read this thing....hahaha you were the only one that knew when i last posted something...I didn't even remember that had put one up. Anyway, I know you and I don't chat as much as we used to, but honestly not much has changed. I know you're doing a lot of the same things, and so am I. If we talked right now I'm sure we'd be bitching about the same thing. Lol....it's always the same shit...I need to post this because I have to go..but trust me i'm not done talking to you chhean. LOL

3 months

Almost 3 months later, here I am back on this thing. I read my last post. Wow, that feels like so long ago......Let me recap the events of the past 3 months...Last time I wrote on this thing my sis had barely been in the hospital for almost a week. She is out now and doing well. She was released from the hospital after about 6 weeks, 2 of those weeks she was in a coma. It was one of the scariest things I've ever experienced. But it was an experience that I learned so much from.
I learned that my little sister is truly a fighter. After being released from rehab she has pretty much bounced back to normal. She has no signs of having suffered brain trauma. For that I am thankful. I am thankful also for the fact that I can enjoy her company again, that I can mess around with her and share some laughs. I am thankful for the opportunity to have grown closer to her. I've learned that we have more in common than I thought.
When she was in the hospital, my whole family's life revolved around going to see her in the hospital in san diego. Life is pretty much back to normal. Life is going. i'm busy working, being the crazy person that I am. :P lol.
I am thankful for today. :)

average

So i've been averaging one post a month....at least here on blogger. I've been posting more blogs on my myspace, so you should go read them there.....Things are tough now. My baby sis is in the hospital. She is sick. She has been in the hospital since Thursday, April 10th. She won't be out anytime soon. I am worried, I am sad. I have faith that she will get better....it's still hard though.

Hugs

I like them. Good ones. Being held tight. Feeling warm. I like that.

Smile.....

I got one. :) Just a quickie...things are good. I'm just taking things as they come to me. The past month has been filled with amazing experiences. I can't seem to stop smiling. And I sure don't want to stop any time soon.

#1 for 2008

Alright, so i know i'm a little late in writing my first blog of 2008....but whatever....Anywho, here it is. A lot has been going on. Lots of good things. I've had a lot of time for just me and getting my life in order. I've spent a lot of time with friends. There is nothing better than that. They are with me even when other relationships end. I've gotten closer to some new people, and distanced myself from others.....I know it is better for me in the long run. Work is good, friends are good. I'm happy. Let me know how you all are doing....whoever still reads this blog that is...lol...